the new duo and my new approach to blogging
nah, i'm sick of adding little headings like this
I'm not a nap person. I just don't like naps. Also, when I do take a nap, my minimum sleeping time is at least two hours. Once I took a nap in the evening and literally woke up late at night. My naps are essentially sleep at this point, because I'm so very tired, although I don't try to show it.
I'm saying this, because I took a nap the other day, and had an awful experience. First, I had removed my seat cushion, and second, I went to sleep in an awful position. Therefore, when I woke up not only was I drowsy but my back hurt like hell and my ass felt like it was on fire. Like the bones in my ass or whatever (I didn't get diarrhea from my nap)
When I woke up, I also choked on my own spit or something. I was very drowsy; my brain was still sleeping in a sense. I literally threw up spit on my desk, coughed and choked so much my throat hurt, and, after this awful nap, went to the sofa in the living room to sleep again. Yeah, I really wasn't feeling it. And then, after I'd woken from my 'second' nap, I got up, drank some water to clear my throat, and cleaned up my spit-ridden desk. It was gross.
Naps have always ruined my schedule all the way from elementary. Whenever I took a nap, I'd wake up tired every time. Having constant sleeping times helped a bit as I felt less tired and was much less likely to nap. It also brought some rigidity to my life. Having a more chill-oriented school lifestyle at school also meant I left school with much more energy than usual. Being shy is extremely energy-intensive. Not being shy is surprisingly not. I've gotten so far without any coffee. It has not been a pretty journey.
I have tea in the morning, but I don't think that does anything to make me less sleepy. It actually makes me feel more relaxed. My parents have said it's supposed to kill your sleepiness, but I have yet to see that happen. I walk while meditating, so I don't freakin fall asleep while trying to clear my mind. Trust me, it has happened many times when I began my mediation journey. Now, it's non-existent, because you can't really fall asleep walking. Well, maybe some people can, but thank God the rest of us can't! That'd mean I would've had to find another way to practice my meditation.
I also sometimes nap when my eyes hurt from too much laptop screentime. Quite recently, I've removed that crevice for any hint of me napping by painting when I don't feel like doing anything computer-related. If you've read my older posts, you must have question when I would finally get that table-top box easel. Guess what? I have one now. I do literally everything on my laptop: reading, writing, studying, whatever. So, it's nice to have a hobby that isn't in any way screen-dependent.
painting
I'm not a good painter, but there's just something really relaxing about dipping that brush into my paint and driving it across the paper. I'm still not super-invested in painting yet, so I haven't bought any canvas yet. Currently, this yellow art journal is doing fine. There's just something so nice and calming when I paint. It calms my head so much and prevents any racing thoughts. I feel different. I feel new. It's still not replacing writing as my major hobby, however. Writing is in my blood.
windows go bye
About that Ubuntu migration, I still have the Windows 11 OS1 in my laptop. Dual-booting two OSes in my system is way too much work, so I actually downloaded VirtualBox in my machine, and made an Ubuntu VM2 which I am still editing. There seems to be a problem with the audio so I'm trying to fix it. I also had a hard time trying to add another disk to my VM to increase its storage capabilities.
Essentially, I'm letting my laptop have a Windows skin but have an Ubuntu core. I was thinking of fully replacing my laptop with the Ubuntu OS, but that's for later. I just want to try Ubuntu out and, for the love of God, leave Windows.
There isn't much on Ubuntu, honestly. It's very minimalistic and isn't full of bloatware and preinstalled software you'll never use like in Windows. I'm having to use the terminal a lot, but I have ChatGPT to help me out. The AI has helped me a ton. I literally wouldn't be able to use the terminal without it (is that the correct pronoun?). As I've said so many times before, I'm not tech-savvy. That's strange, because I'm trying to switch to Linux which is for ... like the really tech-savvy with all that terminal jargon.
more ubuntu crap
I don't really like the fact Ubuntu doesn't have a mp4 player. I had to download VLC player or whatever you call that orange traffic-icon app, and it brought some nostalgia. I used to use a family-owned Windows 8 tablet-like laptop back in Florida and it had VCL player installed. It also had Firefox, which was the first browser I ever used. Now, since Ubuntu's default browser is Firefox, I'm just fine using it now. Woah, time can really make someone walk in circles. It's amazing how much time has passed then. Ugh, I feel so old. Ew.
I had to download a driver to connect my graphics tablet that I use for math but originally bought for art. I also had to download Libre Writer and Libre Calc as well, to open word and excel sheets, and my God, the UI must be from 2007 or something. I didn't download the entire productivity suit, because I mainly just use Word or Excel. If I need to make some slides, I'd rather just use damn Canva. It's much nicer and easier to use than PowerPoint anyways. Anyways, Libre is ugly. Yeah. Someone forgot to fix that terrible UI, but I'm still planning to use it because, at the end of the day, it still works.
I'm feeling quite terrible leaving Windows like this. So much memory is going away. I feel lonely and awkward. It served me quite a lot, although I haven't liked it much. I feel homesick a bit. I don't know why.
new stuff being added
Okay, writing this as of another day, I bring you all good news: I'm changing my posts into a shorter format. Like small posts in one big post. Anyways, I'm also blogging daily everyday for ten minutes everyday, instead of the daily twenty minutes. I want to focus on my writing projects more, especially fiction, so I want to spend more time there. Blogging I just do for fun. Writing I do because that's who I am. I just love stories.
I changed my blog look just the other day, and I realized I didn't like it very much. I'm too lazy of a person to have special plugins and special crap on my blog page. I'm just fine with the boring though reliable default bear theme. I once gave my friend the address to my blog, and to him it looked 'bland and dry'. Well, I agree, but it'd be a great pain in the ass to not make it look bland and dry. I already worked a lot on that guestbook of mine. My blog theme aesthetic isn't pretty, but hey, at least it works.
Anyways, I found a really cute little RSS reader. It's so damn minimalist I could cry. It's called SimpleReader Mobile and is very easy and quick to use. Anyways, my ten minutes for today is over. Bye!